Meaghan's

Yeeee!!

Quit the Pier!!
If anyone wants a totally boring job, that is on the complete opposite end of the "Fun and Exciting Spectrum", (DisneyWorld is on the fun side) you can replace me.
I don't recommend it however.

Awesome birthday bash for Kathy on Monday... so much fun was had, it will be hard to top. I wish it were my 19th birthday again, *sigh*.

Re-applied for Algonquin for next year, now just have to hope that I get into one of those damn programs... or else I may be in trouble.

Thats it!

If you get bored, come visit Pier 1 Imports on Merivale RD.

*sigh*

I am in school. *tear.cry.sniff*

Actually, it's really not that bad, I am happy enough being here. Better then working 38 hours + at the Gap. Damn Gap....grrrr.


Christmas and New Year's was great this year. I was quite pleased. My (second) cousin from Toronto came down and stayed with my sister and I until the 26th. It was really nice. We made Christmas morning breakfast, opened presents and then went to grandmother's and ate a lot of tasty food.
Boxing day consisted on craziness. Of course I worked, 8:45 am until 5pm, I think it was. Not that bad, time and a half at $8.25/hour, not to shabby.
I even got a really nice pre-Christmas Christmas with my guardians on the Friday before, with yes, lots of tastiness. Good, good times :)

As for New Years, there was no partying for me. It consisted of drinking white wine and champagne (heart) and playing Scrabble. Sounds lame, but it was the best time. I never thought Scrabble could be so much fun.

Ta

Long time no write, but I have been fairly busy. I am in photography class right now, so I have some time to kill. I have been here since 12 (it is now 1:33 pm) and class has basically just begun. *sigh* Only another hour to go! Grrrrrrrrr!! I am so bored. But oh well...

...things have been going well so I am pleased. School is sooo close to being done, officially 7 days left!!! Well, school days, which is fantastic! I am sooo excited. It's going to be great having almost a month off of school and not having to worry about due dates and projects. Of course it will be replaced with working, but working = money $$!! Which, is always a good thing.

Christmas shopping and worrying has been keeping me busy. I am happy to report that I have actually already started, so hopefully this year it wont be to stressful. Plus, I am actually looking forward to Christmas this year, which is a nice change from last year. This year I'll actually have a tree! A fake tree, but a tree nonetheless.

Ohh, I watched the new House of Wax last night, lol, its fantastic. So bad, yet entertaining enough. Some fairly gross, jumpy parts (well, I found gross and jumpy). Same with Land of the Dead. Just don't expect it to make sense, because it wont, but it is also great. Both probably would have been tons better under the influence of something, but whatcha going to do?

Well, its not quite Wednesday, but I am equally bored. I had to tell my photography teacher that I couldn't hand in my project on time this week because I had no money. Sadly, this is true. What is sadder is that I spent money on getting my tongue pierced; but as Karma would have it, god this thing pisses me off. Grrrr! Oh, and the rest of the money goes to my dear old doctor, pyschologists must make a killing. Sign me up!
So now I am broke until the government decides to send me my orphan checks or until I see my beloved guardians... *sigh*

Lady night on Saturday was interesting, prehaps a bit of a bust... Still enjoyable, but goodness, we were out of it. Smoking drugs at about 5:30 pm is not a good idea as it may cause you to become extermely sleepy or pass out (lol, ask either Kathryn, Amy or Chelsea for the full, detailed story, lol). It was still a good night and had quite the time, next time we should plan a little better, lol. Oh well.

Less than a month til Christmas break!! Woohoo!! I am so excited. Except I will be back at the Gap, attempting to sell jeans to old, fat, angry because they are fat and old ladies. Oh, its good to be back!

~Meaghan

Making sure I keep up with my Wednesday morning routine...

This weekend was pretty good, shopping (hehe) with Amy and Kathryn (good times), spending time with the boyfriend, relaxing and lots of sleeping due to a kick ass Manotick party on Friday!  Wooo!  Hehehe.

Amy and I had the great idea of being a little fancier than just plain old vodka and Coke (which, is always good, don't get me wrong) by making Vodka strawberry daquaris.  Mmmm, very tasty.  The only problem with those is that the vodka is disguised by tasty strawberry, thus making it undetectable.  Well, needless to say, after 2 (heavely Vodka-filled) daqauris and 1 Jamician shower, I was feeling a tad buzzed.  Buzzed turned into drunk and drunk into, dead.  Thank goodness I was a good sick guest and got my ass into one of 5 bathrooms (it had a fancy bowl sink!) and remained there for most of the night.  Ahh, good times.  That will teach me.  Or will it?

I am quite disappointed by the lack of Hallowe'en parties/gatherings/anything.  I love Hallowe'en and it seems like quite the waste of the one day a year where your allowed to get dressed up (like a whore, if you choose) and no one cares!  Its great.  If anyone knows of any happenings....

Woo, getting out of class early!  Although no more breakfast days, *tear*.

Til next Wednesday...

~ Meaghan ~

Although this very long weekend I hermited myself, I had a pretty good time.  Friday was going to see physcologist in the morning, followed by, tv listening and beginning my drawing project.  Later in the day, I went to my grandmother's for a very early Thanksgiving dinner with my Aunt Carol, who was down from Hamiliton until Sunday. 

There was lots of quality time spent with Phil and just myself.  Both was great.  It was weird, I could have done something, but I just didn't feel like it.  And, I was perfectly happy not doing anything.  Sometimes just hanging around the house by yourself watching TLC is pretty sweet.  From time to time, not all of it. 

Sunday I got to have Thanksgiving dinner with Phil's family.  My God, I never knew food could be so wonderful.  It was so excellant.  I can hardly wait for next year...  As we ate, we drank.  I got myself nice and buzzed.  I love that, not being drunk, but buzzed, such a good feeling.  Anyhow, half of us ended up going to the Casino afterwards, and I FINALLY WON!!!  Ahah!  It was amazing.  From the slots too!  I won a good $83.  Which, isn't that fantastic, but when you only start out with $20, its pretty exciting.  I was quite pleased.  To celebrate, I bought myself a pina coloda (never tried one?  I highly recommend it) and Phil a Keith's.  It was a good time.

Really, the rest of the weekend was relaxing and doing not to much, and it was great! Now I am sitting in Computer Foundations 1. *Sigh* I hate it. Thats why I have the tendency to jibber a lot on some entries, its due to boredom. Only 8:38 am. There is still at least another 2 hours until I can be free and get some tasty breakfast... Tata, Meaghan

World, I am no longer a vegetarian...

After 3 long years, I choose to discontinue my vegetarian ways. Why? Well, I must admit, vegetarian food sucks. I was getting pretty bored of it. Having crappy Thanksgivings and X-mas' year after year, and then it hit me. It really doesn't bother me as much as it used to. It doesn't mean I wont do it again, because I probably will, but until then, I'm back! Wooo!!

This weekend as rather good, dispite some set backs. I think things are on their slow way back to normal. Hopefully things will be better then normal in some cases.

I love you Phil.

Went to a crazy "getting evicted party" in Deerfield. It definitely was interesting. The night seems like a blur (there was lots of alcohol in my system). Both good and bad, happy and sad. The way that life works I guess.
Other than that, it was a quiet weekend of watching movies, drinking and eating (thanks again for dinner, made my night :).

Tonight is the goal of doing homework so I can get it out of the way and do things that I actually want to do. My problem is that I can't focus, and then leave things for the last moment. Getting work done and out of the way makes me feel so good inside. I must work on that.

Lets list:
1. Drawing project (something that I did in gr.11)
2. Find objects to draw for drawing class
3. Research info. on interior decorating for project
4. Create a symbol for my intitals and make the presentation.

really not that much, so whats holding me back?

Class is over.

Bye

Once again, I am sitting in class. Again, it is rather boring. I can hardly wait for December to be here, which is rather soon I suppose.
The weekend went fairly well. Pretty eventful. Thursday night was ackward, yet gave me a sense of maturing and smartening up. It made me happy how something so simple can make the world of difference. Also sad that it took so long and that it had to be done. At least it was done, and for that I couldn't be happier.
Friday was a good time. Watching last night's O.C with Amy, happily explaining everything thats happened in Orange County in the last 3 years to my wisdom teeth-free sister. After, Amy and I meet up with Chelsea at Amy's, and then to Phil's to collect him and Jer. When the troops were gathered, we made our way to the AMC. Luckily, I drive like a crazy, and got there just in the nick of time to catch our movie, the Corpse Bride (disappointing). Also, some random guy gave us 4 free tickets to a movie which we returned and got $65 for free and spent on movie snacks. So sweet. A
fter which, we returned back to my home to play some intense games of Asshole, followed by late night McD's snacking. And, to top of the night, a nice dip in a hot tub at around, oh say, 2 am? It was a pretty damn good time, if I do say so myself. In fact, I will. Damn good.
There, finally finished, now time for bed.

Tata!

PS. Oh yeah, Phil and Jer got naked and jumped over an 8 ft (give or take) fence and ran on Baseline. This was about 3 or 4 am. Ohhhh! And I stole their clothes. Good, good times.

Here I am in class again. Right now I have photography, which is not bad I suppose. It's really dull and very basic right now, but I guess its always good to review. It makes me wish I was back at Merivale, with Ms.Coleman. *Sigh* Everything was easier then.

I'm finally going to a physo appointment tomorrow. Hopefully now my back will be less crooked and prettier. Prehaps I will gain an extra inch in my height. Hehe, I doubt it, but I like to hope.
I also have to work on a drawing project thats due on Wednesday. I am such a procrastanotor (sp?). It will get done, its just going to take some serious time.

I had such a good Friday last week. I'm hoping things are going to start getting better now. I am trying my hardest to make things right and to do what I should have done a long time ago. I suppose the saying is "better late then never". Hopefully thats right.

Time to start learning again (even though I have been hour an hour and a half and done nothing but a very easy test).

Take care,
Meaghan

Well, its here, its finally here.
The first week of college. It's so crazy and exciting and frightening and wonderful, all in one. I keep telling myself that it's good that I'm here and doing something, but at the same time, I really, really don't want to be here. Well, at least right now. I never progressed out of summer mode, so I was rushed right into school hood. I'm actually in my 3rd class of the week right now. We're on a 10 minute break right now, not bad. Considering it's a 3 hour class... *sigh*

Take care all,
-Meaghan

So school starts again on Monday. That is exactly 3 days (not including today). *Sigh* I wish I could be more excited about it, but I can't be. I have nothing to really be excited about. Nothing ever goes right or the way you want it to go. But, alas, thats life. Its one big ball of uncertainity, insanity and confusion. And thats sure as hell as I see it right now. Nothing is working out for me. There is no motivation anymore, or reason to want it.
I wish it were possible to erase everything. Start over and try again. If I could have one thing, thats what I would want it to be. Then I could fix everything and maybe things could be right again. Since thats not happening, all I can hope is that one day everything can work out again. That everyone can be friends again, we can all hang out again, and there be no more anger. No more hate and spite and all those other god awful things that we people do.
I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for what I've caused and what I've done. Maybe one day we can all forget and move on. Until then, know that I regret so much and that I am truly sorry for all that I've done.

It's been so long since I've updated, the last thing I wrote was about moving into the appartment in December. Crazy. Now it is August and I have moved once again into a townhouse of my own with just my sister. It's going fairly well so far. It's so much nicer than the appartment (no offense to the appartment, lots of interesting...good...bad...memories/times).

Things have been interesting, that's for sure. I just wish thatthey would stop being interesting now and all could be forgotten and start off fresh. That would be fantastic. Since unrealistic... what is one to do?

I start Algoquin soon, Aug. 29, and I am looking forward to it now. I am taking pre-design, which is made up of 6 classes. It's going to be exciting. A new place and new people, and hopefully ones that are more mature than what you see daily at high school.

Time to TLC it.

tata

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Well, its been a really long time since I last wrote an entry, so I thought that it was time for one.  Plus I  am in class right now and it's incredibly, painfully boring. 

Good news for me:  I am moving out of my shitty basement apartment and moving into a 3 bedroom apartment on Baseline Rd with PHILIP MICHAEL CHARLES CARRUTHERS and CAMERON DAVID VINCENT TODD this Friday.  I'm so excited.  It's definitely going to be interesting, especially with Phil and I's past... Should lead to some crazy times.  I am up for it though.  I figure things can't get any worse, and this is better then before.  I'll let you know how it goes.

School is alomost over.  9 days until the holidays (7 school days?  Less?).  Whatever, its awesome.  Lots of working though, at the GAP come visit me (Bayshore).

Have fun

I can't believe how quickly the summer is going by.  It wasn't long ago that I was in Rome with a boyfriend and extermely happy.  Now, I am back in Ottawa, boyfriendless and not the happiest of people.  Foruntely, there have been other really fine times for me this summer.  Road trip to Toronto and going to Wonderland, that was pretty amazing (I didn't even get lost...minus Square One).  Also, my first trip to Amy's cottage, where I even swam in disgusting, dirty lake water; which proved to be quite fun.  So, despite the bad, this summer has been very, very busy and exciting for me. 

As crazy as it will sound, I am looking forward to school now.  One last year and then who knows.  It's going to be awesome.  Prehaps its just me, but I am really looking forward to it.

Everyone have a great rest of the summer and do some crazy shit!

Well, I can't believe another year has gone by.  It's so crazy how fast things just seem to go by.  And definitely not just when your having fun.  I am looking forward to summer so much.  For me, summer officially begans Wednesday, as that is my last exam; biology.  Its going to such so much.  However, I am relieved to hear that I have a 55% in that class now, which means I would have to get under 30-something % on the exam.  Frankly, I think I can do better than that. 

Highlight of this year for me?  Hasn't happened yet, but when I come back from Rome, I'll tell all who asks about it.  I am looking forward to this so much, and really, I need this more than anyone.  Its going to be amazing.  I plan on taking a gizillion pictures and than making a scrapbook as soon as possible. 

I hope everyone else has an excellant beganning to their summer!

-Meaghan

7 days left of school!!!

WOO HOO

Lets go out and par-tay!!!

(...and drink and have a fucking good time)

Today has been a pretty good day for me, considering it is a Monday, but thats alright.  School is such a joke nowadays.  I could miss a week or two of school and not really miss anything.  Its pretty sad actually.  And that is why I am not at school now.  I decided that I would rather be at Phil's house doing this and other random things.  So much better. 
Plus I would have to be praticipating in the dissection of a poor fetel pig.  It is the grossest thing I have ever done.  I absolutely hate dead things.  This includes: touching them, looking at them, eating them, and other things that may include dead things.  It is just the dirtiest thing ever.  Which is bad, as this may cause me to fail biology, grrrr (anger face).

My weekend was pretty good.  Friday was my birthday, along with Andy and Mari's Mo(e)...  For dinner I went to East Side Mario's and got to stand on a chair and be sung to.  I have always wanted that!  I don't think I have ever gotten a birthday song from a resturant before, it was quite exciting.  However, they said my name was Melissa...but thats ok.  I won a tomato keychain, so that was pretty sweet.  After that I just went back to Philip's and stayed there all weekend.  It was quite nice and relaxing.

Ahhh, I am looking forward to summer!!!  Its going to be awesome to get away from things for a whole 2 months!!!  All I need, is a job.  If anyome has connections... hook me up!!!  Anyhow, you all take care. 

-Meaghan